I am so thankful. I cannot believe how great this is!! it is so exciting that you almost cannot get excited. I am stunned and in awe. I am in shock, I suppose. but not. At the same time, I expect miracles, so why be surprised when they come. Miracles can be as natural as breathing.
We will receive 250,000 to 500,000 dollars worth of medical equipment and supplies at our Trinity Global Development facility north of Kakamega, Western Kenya. The building is going up now. It is a 2 story 5000 sq ft (approx) building with a dog run (southern term for breezeway through the middle) two rooms on each side, two above. We will have a computer lab, a medical clinic, a library, and a training center for women to learn to sew so they can support themselves. We have a nurse and a doctor we know that will be available daily. This will be a great relief to the area as they had a clinic open up in the spring, only to stagnate due to corruption. Money sent from the Netherlands goes to Nairobi but then never makes it on to the Emusanda Clinic. So sad. But we'll be there. We have no middle men.
God is great. God is good. and we thank Him for our food. and we offer food and water and medical care to others. We give the orphans a preschool for education, we open computer lab for older students and the community. we offer public health education, the church there offers training in keeping chickens and cows. We train women in sewing and men in carpentry. We are working on wells for remote areas. How could all this come about? only through the hand of God. Steve and I are not smart enough to do all this by ourselves.
Come let us adore Him!
Monday, December 07, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Trinity Global
Titus wrote me an email. Joseph is supporting nearly 20 children out of one area. He is ministering to the people remotely because Trinity Global provided him with a motorcycle. There is a baptism every week. Titus would like to see some support or some house for these children. I am praying about it now.
My biggest prayer requests are for donors and provision and resources. We have contacted Medical Bridges and requested a huge shipping crate full of free medical equipment. They have responded and we will begin working on the legalities. We will need Dr. Kennedy's information, I am sure.
We don't have the medical clinic built yet. Work has begun on the TGD facility that will house the computer lab. I am praying that Dell will promote the project. They could even sponsor us and use us as an example of the kind of work employees at Dell are involved in.
They could give us the Dell Connected Classroom equipment---thousands of dollars of savings.
With these two giant donations, it would free up our donors to give directly to PEOPLE which can be very satisfying to the soul. Villages need Wells---and a well directly helps everyone in the area of the well. It reduces the time women and children spend traveling to watering holes which then have putrid water! so many parasites and worms get into the body through contaminated water. so many infectious diseases come from the feces to mouth transfer. Infected children commonly use water sources to relieve themselves and inadvertantly sicken whole villages quickly.
and many of these sickness have CURES but no one has the money to buy them or they are not available in their area.
WE CAN CHANGE THAT!!
WE CAN AFFECT THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE'S LIVES DIRECTLY!
and so we will, though God's mighty work. He is doing things I would never imagine. I am going places I thought I would never see.
When I read "Goforth of China" about Jonathan Goforth, I was so deeply stirred to travel to China and serve the people there. I prayed for China for 20 years and India as well. When I traveled to India, I did not feel the heart call I expected. However, China nearly blew me over. The imact spiritually and emotionally was intense.
And so I was sure (and I am still sure) that I am called to China.
However, I have ALWAYS told the Lord, "Here I am, send me." and I have always been willing to go anywhere and do anything. I had even come to the point of willingness to never go! if that was His will, then I wanted to agree with Him completely.
so I am blessed beyond measure to be doing a good work for the Kingdom of God and to minister to humanity in love. I pray that I ALWAYS minister love---however, some critics have told me otherwise.
but I am not daunted. I suppose everyone has a critic. You cannot please everyone---and pleasing man is not the goal---we please GOD. and He sees the motive of our hearts. He sees me typing here right now. and sees you reading right now (hey, thanks for reading!)
and He works it all to His good pleasure and to the culmination of this world and the beginning of the next.
We can't know His full will, but He has revealed His Will in His Word and He reveals His Will by His Spirit. So there is much we CAN know.
and what I do know is this:
God desires that we love others, serve others, forgive others, bless others, and pray for one another.
He commands us to go into the world and preach the gospel, baptizing in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost and teaching people to OBEY all that He has commanded.
(obedience is a big deal to God but it is terribly out of fashion these days with many who claim to be of Christ.)
He desires that we care for the helpless, the widow, the orphan. He desires that we live with honesty and integrity in all that we do. We should not have even an appearance of evil. if things are questionable, in love we are to live for the conscience of our weaker brother.
We are to be ambassadors for Christ, imploring men, BE RECONCILED TO GOD!
These are just a few of the commands that motivate me. I desire to know His Word and to meditate on it day and night. But the time for study is past. We competent ministers of the Word. We are to be active. as the book of James insists.
we are to have unity with our brothers and sisters. we are to forgive them. we are not to associate with blatent hypocrites, though. if a brother or a sister are in flagrant unrepentant sin, we aren't to eat with them. Jesus was harsh with the pharisees yet tender to the crazy, the possessed, the low life. He was compassionate to the pressures and fears of the common people. He ministered to the poor.
we are to esteem the poor and carry their burdens. we are not to just say, "God bless you!" but we are to help them.
i think around here there is merely much of rich giving to rich. what a waste! or we are giving to ourselves.
we have so much debt that we don't want to give to the kingdom. We want to keep paying down our debt and then OOPS we ran it back up again. Oh, we need to pay it back down again. and so we never give to God because we are always paying ourselves.
buying new cars, new clothes, new foods, new activities, ---when we are already more than amply supplied -----BUT
and this is big.
BUT THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE WHO HAS SO MUCH MORE THAN WE DO SO WE CAN ALWAYS FEEL LIKE WE ARE NOT VERY EXTRAVAGANT.
oh,
but if we compared ourselves to the villagers of Western Kenya.
Hmmmn.
They have ONE cabinet in their house. it holds their pots, pans, dishes, clothes. They have one table and a couple of benches or a couch. Maybe two tables. They might have a goat. their walls are mud, their roof is thatched. They cook over a fire. they draw water from a stream that is dirty. their house has only two rooms. the other is the bedroom with a bed. I did not see anyone with mosquito nets---very dangerous.
Now. compare yourself to that!
how many shoes do you have? they do not all have shoes.
do you wear glasses or contacts? they need those too but don't have them.
do you take any medicine? even tylenol? they dont' have it.
do you have water in your house? electricity? they have to use an outhouse with a hole in the ground that you squat over.
do you have a job? a car? they don't
they really need clean water.
they need sanitary latrines and a way to wash their hands.
they need SHOES
they need healthy gardens with fertilizer and good seeds and a way to water.
My biggest prayer requests are for donors and provision and resources. We have contacted Medical Bridges and requested a huge shipping crate full of free medical equipment. They have responded and we will begin working on the legalities. We will need Dr. Kennedy's information, I am sure.
We don't have the medical clinic built yet. Work has begun on the TGD facility that will house the computer lab. I am praying that Dell will promote the project. They could even sponsor us and use us as an example of the kind of work employees at Dell are involved in.
They could give us the Dell Connected Classroom equipment---thousands of dollars of savings.
With these two giant donations, it would free up our donors to give directly to PEOPLE which can be very satisfying to the soul. Villages need Wells---and a well directly helps everyone in the area of the well. It reduces the time women and children spend traveling to watering holes which then have putrid water! so many parasites and worms get into the body through contaminated water. so many infectious diseases come from the feces to mouth transfer. Infected children commonly use water sources to relieve themselves and inadvertantly sicken whole villages quickly.
and many of these sickness have CURES but no one has the money to buy them or they are not available in their area.
WE CAN CHANGE THAT!!
WE CAN AFFECT THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE'S LIVES DIRECTLY!
and so we will, though God's mighty work. He is doing things I would never imagine. I am going places I thought I would never see.
When I read "Goforth of China" about Jonathan Goforth, I was so deeply stirred to travel to China and serve the people there. I prayed for China for 20 years and India as well. When I traveled to India, I did not feel the heart call I expected. However, China nearly blew me over. The imact spiritually and emotionally was intense.
And so I was sure (and I am still sure) that I am called to China.
However, I have ALWAYS told the Lord, "Here I am, send me." and I have always been willing to go anywhere and do anything. I had even come to the point of willingness to never go! if that was His will, then I wanted to agree with Him completely.
so I am blessed beyond measure to be doing a good work for the Kingdom of God and to minister to humanity in love. I pray that I ALWAYS minister love---however, some critics have told me otherwise.
but I am not daunted. I suppose everyone has a critic. You cannot please everyone---and pleasing man is not the goal---we please GOD. and He sees the motive of our hearts. He sees me typing here right now. and sees you reading right now (hey, thanks for reading!)
and He works it all to His good pleasure and to the culmination of this world and the beginning of the next.
We can't know His full will, but He has revealed His Will in His Word and He reveals His Will by His Spirit. So there is much we CAN know.
and what I do know is this:
God desires that we love others, serve others, forgive others, bless others, and pray for one another.
He commands us to go into the world and preach the gospel, baptizing in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost and teaching people to OBEY all that He has commanded.
(obedience is a big deal to God but it is terribly out of fashion these days with many who claim to be of Christ.)
He desires that we care for the helpless, the widow, the orphan. He desires that we live with honesty and integrity in all that we do. We should not have even an appearance of evil. if things are questionable, in love we are to live for the conscience of our weaker brother.
We are to be ambassadors for Christ, imploring men, BE RECONCILED TO GOD!
These are just a few of the commands that motivate me. I desire to know His Word and to meditate on it day and night. But the time for study is past. We competent ministers of the Word. We are to be active. as the book of James insists.
we are to have unity with our brothers and sisters. we are to forgive them. we are not to associate with blatent hypocrites, though. if a brother or a sister are in flagrant unrepentant sin, we aren't to eat with them. Jesus was harsh with the pharisees yet tender to the crazy, the possessed, the low life. He was compassionate to the pressures and fears of the common people. He ministered to the poor.
we are to esteem the poor and carry their burdens. we are not to just say, "God bless you!" but we are to help them.
i think around here there is merely much of rich giving to rich. what a waste! or we are giving to ourselves.
we have so much debt that we don't want to give to the kingdom. We want to keep paying down our debt and then OOPS we ran it back up again. Oh, we need to pay it back down again. and so we never give to God because we are always paying ourselves.
buying new cars, new clothes, new foods, new activities, ---when we are already more than amply supplied -----BUT
and this is big.
BUT THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE WHO HAS SO MUCH MORE THAN WE DO SO WE CAN ALWAYS FEEL LIKE WE ARE NOT VERY EXTRAVAGANT.
oh,
but if we compared ourselves to the villagers of Western Kenya.
Hmmmn.
They have ONE cabinet in their house. it holds their pots, pans, dishes, clothes. They have one table and a couple of benches or a couch. Maybe two tables. They might have a goat. their walls are mud, their roof is thatched. They cook over a fire. they draw water from a stream that is dirty. their house has only two rooms. the other is the bedroom with a bed. I did not see anyone with mosquito nets---very dangerous.
Now. compare yourself to that!
how many shoes do you have? they do not all have shoes.
do you wear glasses or contacts? they need those too but don't have them.
do you take any medicine? even tylenol? they dont' have it.
do you have water in your house? electricity? they have to use an outhouse with a hole in the ground that you squat over.
do you have a job? a car? they don't
they really need clean water.
they need sanitary latrines and a way to wash their hands.
they need SHOES
they need healthy gardens with fertilizer and good seeds and a way to water.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
supplies needed for Kenya
We've signed up with Medical Bridges hoping to transport a giant packing crate full of medical equipment to Kenya. The building materials arrived and work commenced!
Some of the medical supplies that can be purchased from a drug store or requested from your health care provider include:
Sterile and non-sterile gloves
guaze pads
band aids
chux pads
adult or child disposable diapers
individual alcohol pads
KY Jelly
Neosporin
Bactine
Hydrocortisone
Ointment for burns
Prenatal vitamins
multivitamins
Iron
Quinine
I went to a libraries of love Uganda fund raiser last night. she had pokie joes and people brought desserts. People made Tea and lemonade.
someone had donated several things from one of those home decorator to do silent auction. Then a cool thing was how she had several restaurants donating $25 gift certificates!
Like
Chili's
Red Lobster
Cinemark
Tokyo Steakhouse
Pei Wei
and I was thinking maybe I could also ask
Pappadeaux
Eddie Vs
Trulucks
Treehouse
Macaroni Grill
Olive Garden
and I'd like to make a prewritten thankyou and take it to them. it would work for their tax purposes and I'd fill in the amount of the gift. People could buy raffle tickets to bid on them. then we'd pull from the bag and award the certificates.
I saw it done there and it looks manageable.
I feel so stretched! I'm always doing these odd and weird things.
but I can do it! I can do it for Jesus and his love for those Kenyan children.
we are changing the world!
it is so rewarding.
i praise God every day.
when my mood sinks,
I think about Him and the work He is doing.
i'm grateful to be a part of His Kingdom.
Some of the medical supplies that can be purchased from a drug store or requested from your health care provider include:
Sterile and non-sterile gloves
guaze pads
band aids
chux pads
adult or child disposable diapers
individual alcohol pads
KY Jelly
Neosporin
Bactine
Hydrocortisone
Ointment for burns
Prenatal vitamins
multivitamins
Iron
Quinine
I went to a libraries of love Uganda fund raiser last night. she had pokie joes and people brought desserts. People made Tea and lemonade.
someone had donated several things from one of those home decorator to do silent auction. Then a cool thing was how she had several restaurants donating $25 gift certificates!
Like
Chili's
Red Lobster
Cinemark
Tokyo Steakhouse
Pei Wei
and I was thinking maybe I could also ask
Pappadeaux
Eddie Vs
Trulucks
Treehouse
Macaroni Grill
Olive Garden
and I'd like to make a prewritten thankyou and take it to them. it would work for their tax purposes and I'd fill in the amount of the gift. People could buy raffle tickets to bid on them. then we'd pull from the bag and award the certificates.
I saw it done there and it looks manageable.
I feel so stretched! I'm always doing these odd and weird things.
but I can do it! I can do it for Jesus and his love for those Kenyan children.
we are changing the world!
it is so rewarding.
i praise God every day.
when my mood sinks,
I think about Him and the work He is doing.
i'm grateful to be a part of His Kingdom.
Friday, October 30, 2009
blessing and glory and honor and power forever
Oh God is good. and I am so happy. God is good when I'm unhappy. He satisfies me when life is so painful. but I'm rejoicing today. I'm thankful for what God can do with willing hands. and I pray He enlarge our tents and stretch out our stakes. But let His Kingdom come.
It was so good today to go to Mister's work. it was so good! It was good to get the proceeds from the party. I was so thankful. I know our Kenyan friends are so thankful. Oh to help others who cannot help you back. it is so rewarding. Such the God-life. All that He does for us and what can we do for Him? NOTHING! He owns the cattle on a thousand hills and the heart of the King. He has no need of the blood of goats or cows or anything we could imagine doing for Him. He is sufficient in all things. He created everything! How magnificent.
So much is happening and I forget to blog anything. Thanks to my friend who says, "Hey! why isn't your trinity link on your blog?" well, I don't know. accident. dumb? but okay, i'll fix that. i need to make it a link on here and I'll do that soon.
for now. I'm just awed by God. How He works powerfully in one arena and then in some other arena, it might feel like, "Hello, God? Are you noticing this thingy over here?" and so we are so fickle. As if He should just hop to it when we have a perceived problem.
I'm just so thankful right now. So thankful.
It was so good today to go to Mister's work. it was so good! It was good to get the proceeds from the party. I was so thankful. I know our Kenyan friends are so thankful. Oh to help others who cannot help you back. it is so rewarding. Such the God-life. All that He does for us and what can we do for Him? NOTHING! He owns the cattle on a thousand hills and the heart of the King. He has no need of the blood of goats or cows or anything we could imagine doing for Him. He is sufficient in all things. He created everything! How magnificent.
So much is happening and I forget to blog anything. Thanks to my friend who says, "Hey! why isn't your trinity link on your blog?" well, I don't know. accident. dumb? but okay, i'll fix that. i need to make it a link on here and I'll do that soon.
for now. I'm just awed by God. How He works powerfully in one arena and then in some other arena, it might feel like, "Hello, God? Are you noticing this thingy over here?" and so we are so fickle. As if He should just hop to it when we have a perceived problem.
I'm just so thankful right now. So thankful.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Glory to God!
I am so blessed by the Lord!
We had a party for Bishop Titus and his wife, Rose on Friday. I sent home food with my friends who have large families. After they left, I discovered more food in the oven warming. What to do with all that food?
Today, I was in prayer and I asked the Lord to help me give this food to people who needed it. I was considering making large plastic baggies of food to hand out to people on the street corners. Suddenly, I thought of James Hinojosa who frequently goes down to 6th St. bridge to feed the homeless on Sundays. Immediately, I remembered that he is now going to early services--so he would be at church. But the idea came in such a way.......and the argument came so quickly........I knew I should TRY.
So I jumped up and called James on his cell phone. HE WAS ON HIS WAY TO WORK UNDER THE BRIDGE!! "Are you far? Where are you?" He was CLOSE. He had only gotten to Wells Branch, the street near our homes. "Can you come back and take food to the people?" OF COURSE!
and PRAISE THE LORD! HIS KINGDOM COME AND HIS WILL BE DONE!
Something so simple, yet so profound. I am just rocked to get such a blessing from immediate obedience. To know God spoke to me and that He had a plan. I am so thankful to participate!
Wow!
and that food did not go to waste.
Everyone is happy.
wow!
We had a party for Bishop Titus and his wife, Rose on Friday. I sent home food with my friends who have large families. After they left, I discovered more food in the oven warming. What to do with all that food?
Today, I was in prayer and I asked the Lord to help me give this food to people who needed it. I was considering making large plastic baggies of food to hand out to people on the street corners. Suddenly, I thought of James Hinojosa who frequently goes down to 6th St. bridge to feed the homeless on Sundays. Immediately, I remembered that he is now going to early services--so he would be at church. But the idea came in such a way.......and the argument came so quickly........I knew I should TRY.
So I jumped up and called James on his cell phone. HE WAS ON HIS WAY TO WORK UNDER THE BRIDGE!! "Are you far? Where are you?" He was CLOSE. He had only gotten to Wells Branch, the street near our homes. "Can you come back and take food to the people?" OF COURSE!
and PRAISE THE LORD! HIS KINGDOM COME AND HIS WILL BE DONE!
Something so simple, yet so profound. I am just rocked to get such a blessing from immediate obedience. To know God spoke to me and that He had a plan. I am so thankful to participate!
Wow!
and that food did not go to waste.
Everyone is happy.
wow!
Thursday, August 06, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
architectural plans for computer lab are complete
We got the computer lab building plans in the mail and they look great! Walter is doing a great job as an employee and he is training Wycliffe. We have lost contact with Francesca so we may need a new librarian, but it can wait. The building needs to be completed!
I'm having a church "Africa Network" meeting on Wednesday Aug 12. We have a list of about 50 people who have gone on trips to Africa before. Many could be college students who have moved on...we'll see. Lindsay joins us as a leader--she just returned from Tanzania where she was instrumental in the building of a medical clinic in Arusha through Manna Worldwide Ministries. We'll help people who feel called to Africa to find a ministry fit. We'll have monthly meetings for encouragement, prayer, support and networking.
On September 19th, I'll host a fund raiser for Trinity Global Development at headquarters and hopefully people will graciously join us to serve the people in the Kakamega area.
I'm apprenticing with a local midwife, beginning a Texas Midwifery 3 year course and taking nursing school pre-requisites. It's the abundant life!
Laura graduates on August 15th at Baylor and Steve's family will be joining us. I'm not sure who all will be coming. We should have a house full!
I'm having a church "Africa Network" meeting on Wednesday Aug 12. We have a list of about 50 people who have gone on trips to Africa before. Many could be college students who have moved on...we'll see. Lindsay joins us as a leader--she just returned from Tanzania where she was instrumental in the building of a medical clinic in Arusha through Manna Worldwide Ministries. We'll help people who feel called to Africa to find a ministry fit. We'll have monthly meetings for encouragement, prayer, support and networking.
On September 19th, I'll host a fund raiser for Trinity Global Development at headquarters and hopefully people will graciously join us to serve the people in the Kakamega area.
I'm apprenticing with a local midwife, beginning a Texas Midwifery 3 year course and taking nursing school pre-requisites. It's the abundant life!
Laura graduates on August 15th at Baylor and Steve's family will be joining us. I'm not sure who all will be coming. We should have a house full!
Friday, June 05, 2009
WE HAVE TAX EXEMPT STATUS!!!
Trinity Global Development received notice that our application as a 501 (c) 3 organization was approved. Now we are completing the paperwork with Dell to receive matching funds from employee donations. Wow. I'm amazed. What a blessing to our friends in Kakamega! What a blessing to the families out in the bush!
We met with our Minister of International Ministry at Stone. We hope to develop a missional community with those who are already working on the African continent for Jesus. With likemindedness and varieties of ministry, we will prayerfully support one another and network together in the body of Christ. It is an exciting time!
I added a photo of me with Boniface reviewing the recipients of the mosquito nets. He divided the 100 nets purchased by Trinity (with donations! thank you!) between several area leaders so that they went to the pregnant women and nursing mothers with infants first.
Right now we are working towards the computer lab building and equipment. We hope to bring several more computers to the area by December. We'll have a trip in December and bring 1o people. Each of those travelers will use one of their allotted suitcases to carry ministry supplies. We want to get the foundation poured. The Provincial Commissioner of the Western Province spoke with Steve and offered to preside over the ground breaking ceremony and assured him that he will provide security or government clearance as needed. He is equivalent to Rick Perry, but there are only 5 of them and they meet directly with the President of the country regularly.
We want to help the Emusanda Health Centre, but we also know that our friend Jane can re-open her medical clinic in Isongo with a gift of $350. That is as important. Emusanda is a few miles away from Isongo and people have to walk to the clinics, so they serve different clientele. S
We are expanding the school, adding cooks and teachers. We want to sponsor uniforms for the children because all the schools in Kenya require uniforms. The students need two meals a day and school supplies for children like Paul, who is 7 years old attending preschool. Both of his parents were killed in a car accident and his older brother had to drop out of junior high to become the father of his siblings, so Paul did not get to go to school either. Now he is learning English, Swahili, math skills, and even social skills using the national curriculum for Kenya.
God is moving mightily. It is a great time in Kakamega. The country is in a great depression and the few jobs are fleeing away, yet God is graciously providing for our brothers and sisters in Kenya. There is no recession in heaven! God is on His throne reigning over His people. He is bringing prosperity upon His children.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
musings
I drank two cokes yesterday, that is double the usual....and caffeine actually works on me. When I was 20, I could not get enough. I probably drank six a day. Now I drink two cokes and I wake up at 4am.
So i got up and looked up the passages in Titus about teaching younger women to love their husbands and children and to be busy at home. Yeah, maybe some women don't like busy at home...I know I used to feel positively crushed by staying at home. I wanted to GO and DO and BE....and this week? Ha! I want to stay home in my room and only venture out through computing. The long trip to Mississippi wore me out. Perhaps I was still creeping after the long LONG flights home with the endless layovers and longing for that elusive rested energetic vitality.
Staying home has been difficult for me. Penelope and Oliver have somehow made a difference and I'm thankful for it! but even when I stay home contentedly, I feel pressured to go out and do something important so i am not wasting my life but redeeming the time. A life is such a precious gift, strength is such a precious gift. when I am really listless, God has a chance to whisper to me. He can get through to me when I am satiated from my endless intercessions and declarations and petitions--and just worn out.
He speaks beautiful things. and He corrects me. and I listen. and I love Him.
Better is one day in His courts than thousands elsewhere.
One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.
All of my fountains are in you!
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my life and my portion forever.
Hallelujah!
So i got up and looked up the passages in Titus about teaching younger women to love their husbands and children and to be busy at home. Yeah, maybe some women don't like busy at home...I know I used to feel positively crushed by staying at home. I wanted to GO and DO and BE....and this week? Ha! I want to stay home in my room and only venture out through computing. The long trip to Mississippi wore me out. Perhaps I was still creeping after the long LONG flights home with the endless layovers and longing for that elusive rested energetic vitality.
Staying home has been difficult for me. Penelope and Oliver have somehow made a difference and I'm thankful for it! but even when I stay home contentedly, I feel pressured to go out and do something important so i am not wasting my life but redeeming the time. A life is such a precious gift, strength is such a precious gift. when I am really listless, God has a chance to whisper to me. He can get through to me when I am satiated from my endless intercessions and declarations and petitions--and just worn out.
He speaks beautiful things. and He corrects me. and I listen. and I love Him.
Better is one day in His courts than thousands elsewhere.
One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.
All of my fountains are in you!
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my life and my portion forever.
Hallelujah!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Hey
Today I was working on the Trinity website. I was trying to post on the current opportunities page. I wanted to say something about how the computer lab is in progress and donate. of course, more needs to be said than that, so I asked Steve what I should write. He was irritated with me---"You don't just write on a website like conversation."Oh.
yeah.
i guess that's right.
geesh.
i just want to COMMUNICATE! but it is true that you have to consider the audience.
okay, okay.
so I'm blogging to get out my "personal message" style.
I just like to talk!
and at least when I'm on here, I know I'm not interrupting anyone. No one has to listen here. It is all by choice.
alright, so anyway (conversation style here) .....this is a picture of Emily, our preschool teacher. It was Emily's initial vision that got the school started. Bishop Titus (they call him Bishop since he is a head pastor over several pastors) sponsors the school. He provides the school room. Through Trinity Global Development donations, we purchased 100 preschool sized chairs and made 6 tables and three cabinets.
We still need school improvements. The roof was repaired somewhat, although more needs to be done. The partitions are next but when baby T. J. died, the efforts at improvements went on hold. They'll begin soon.
Today is my 26th anniversary! I want a big party. Last year we had to skip party preparations because Steve's father was dying of cancer. He found out in September 2007 and began treatment. But by January 2008, it was evident that the cancer was spreading. He continued treatment but it was not successful. Steve spent most of the Spring trying to drive back and forth to see his father. He was able to spend some time caring for him. All of the siblings were involved. It was not a time for parties. His father passed onto Jesus on May 14th and so on our anniversary, we went to Florida and took little Penelope, but it was a dismal trip. Steve was dealing with plenty of emotion.
So this year, our anniversary is here, but maybe God planned it so that I could make it a fund raising party instead. I should say, maybe I want to have a fundraiser for my anniversary. I'd love to have a big dinner and encourage people to give. So instead of calling it my anniversary party and then tackily asking for donations, I'll make it plain that for my anniversary, Steve is letting me have a fundraising dinner.
I want to bless our brothers and sisters in Kenya---AND increase the Kingdom of God by lifting up Jesus and bringing in the sheaves! I enjoyed getting to know so many people and there are just people you connect with--that you want to bless--that you want to stay in contact with---get to know more and more over time.
we want long term relationships there. we want to establish a work of God and friendships that last. we have Kenyan family now. It is good.
and I'm sure there will be struggles and there will be a honeymoon period and there will be disappointments---but may it be like a strong marriage---built on commitment! even through the pain. even through disappointments because that is when the joy shines through. How thankful I am that I've stayed with Steve. How many times I was ready to quit and God persuaded me or blocked me. and now I bear the fruit of love, joy and peace! what a friend I have in steve. sometimes I want no other (of course, there are other times when he drives me crazy, but it is often just our personalities in conflict.)
i need to buy a book on Amazon. a book about doing community development rather than giving aid to the poor. help them help themselves. the give a man a fish vs. fisherman thing.
blessings!
Monday, May 18, 2009
Home from Kenya
Oh God is good. I've just returned home and now I've gotten the house back in order. I've paid my bills and washed the clothes and posted a few pictures on facebook. I'm so thankful. We had a wonderful time in Kenya with our friends. How amazing to go back and see them so soon. Anita and I were just beside ourselves. God is so good! and how fun for Anita and I to be on the other side of the world together talking about Jesus after being friends for over 20 years. cool.
i need to make a report. i hesitate to even do it. once I've told people about it, it will just fade in their memory like an old story. Old news. yesterdays news. but it is happening NOW. The work of God is going on NOW and it continues!
I can't remember right now how much we had in donations. We have at least four people whose donations will come through their company's matching funds. We're willing to wait for it!
We purchased 100 children's chairs for the school. Your dollars at work! We purchased six tables and either two or three cabinets for books. We officially agreed on the salaries for the two current teachers. They are advertising for new teachers with certification in early childhood education. We may keep these two teachers on as aides and we have a cook hired, too.
We spoke with the architect about building plans for the computer lab and library. Eventually we'd like to have it be two stories with a carpentry school and a tailoring school on the bottom and the computer lab and library on the top. For now, we'll build a one story building with a foundation capable of expansion to two stories. The land was purchased with money we sent in January before we had Trinity up and running.
We hired three people for the computer lab. One main guy is already a computer teacher who knows programming languages. he's also going to be our administrator. We left a computer with him. Another guy got a computer and he's going to be training so that he can also teach others. then we have a librarian ready to begin once the library is there. We may be able to get the building up, but it may be some time before it is filled with books! books are hard to ship, very expensive.
We also spoke with a local clinic and found out their needs. We went to a hospital and spoke with a doctor there. We purchased VERY low cost government dispersed mosquito nets at 65 cents a piece rather than the five dollars they would cost at the grocery store. He let us purchase quinine from him to send to the local clinic. Mom got one big bottle of 1000 and we bought one bottle of 1000. each bottle has 2000 doses for children.
malaria is a terrible killer. pregnant and nursing mothers and infants are particularly susceptible. AIDS kills slowly, malaria is frequent and quick. The doctor said that prevention is the key and the nets have significantly reduced the number of cases they treat daily.
We brought the donated aspirin and tylenol, and feminine products to the clinic. Mom brought a stethescope and a blood pressure cuff, a merck manual, exam gloves and alcohol wipes. They were so thankful and grateful. Talk about a pleasure to give! wow! it just makes you want to go find more to give.
and the need is so great, it is only a drop in the bucket.
but if everyone gives a drop, the bucket could runneth over!
and so I pray that we will continue to get the message out and that God will encourage others to join us in sharing with the poorest of poor.
Anita and I really enjoyed going around to the churches. The people are so welcoming. they are so blessed to have the novelty of visitors come into their lives. they are so friendly and cheerful even in their poverty. They know they are suffering, but they really look to the Lord for provision and relief and healing and encouragement. It is such a blessing to be around them.
The camera helps make easy friends. they love their picture taken. i wish I could hand them a finished photo! i will send photos for some, but it would cost a fortune to make them all and the money is better spent elsewhere.
Little Paul had been in the hospital when my mother made the visit there. Titus and Rose prayed for Paul. A few days later, we headed up the road to Margaret's house to pray for little Paul. He was out of the hospital but he was still hot with fever. We purchased that Quinine and were glad to send him some medication.
Another boy named Paul attends the school. He is 7 or 8 but he's not been to school and cannot afford to go. both of his parents died in a car accident and his pre-teen brother was left to raise the family. There is no way they will be able to pay for the uniforms or the books or the daily meal that are required in order to attend free public school. But Paul is learning English and Swahili at our preschool and he gets a free meal each day. Let's hope he's a whiz at computers because we do not have an elementary school yet and it would be a shame for him to only have a preschool education.
On a lighter note, there was the free termite meal night. I was not there, but mom and anita were awakened by people crawling around their house and it spooked them. they finally got up to find out what was going on. people had come to the place where there was electric lighting. After the rains, the termites had come in swarms. to the kenyans, this was manna from heaven! they were out collecting them and sticking them in cups and jars to take home and cook. for the hungry, they can be eaten alive as a sweet snack. Our friends gladly demonstated. UGH! even little children pick them up and snack on them cheerfully.
and then there was the day that Anita received the amazing luxury gift of a rooster. She was blessed. She knew what a sacrifice this was for Godwin and Mildred. Mildred was pregnant when we were there in December and we gave her baby supplies because she had nothing. Godwin had been a muslim who came to Jesus and his family rejected him and cut him off. He had nothing.
But the baby died in her womb and she delivered a stillborn. We were so grieved. Anita and I were talking on the phone when she got the email. We cried and prayed for young little Mildred.
so it was with great joy that we saw she was doing well. Anita accepted the gift graciously. She and mom headed to bed early that night. About 10pm, someone peeked into the room......was she ready to get up to eat dinner? ......no thank you, she was already asleep.
when she got up in the morning, she saw the boys eating the night's leftovers. it was rooster. and not any rooster, but her gift rooster! Gone, eaten. and they enjoyed him. Oh well, you can't exactly take him home, right? mom wishes she'd have gotten a picture of that bone on the plate. evidence that mr. rooster did indeed exist. but he passed into obscurity instead.
then there was my food poisoning. should I make a story out of that? ha ha! it was very public. everyone told me wherever i went afterwards that they were praying for my sickness. hooray! but I am glad they prayed. all through my misery, i continally thanked God telling Him, It is worth it. I am glad to be here. this is nothing. it will pass.
and it did.
and I'm fine.
i lost 10 pounds and then gained it right back, darn it.
slim for three days.
oh i guess there are more important things.
we did get to go around to several churches and preach the good news and rejoice with our brothers and sisters. We got to worship with them, which is always fun. especially at Joseph's church ---and I heard that Thomas Boya's church is very lively---but I was not able to make that one. We went to Sony's church, Boniface's church, Geoffrey's church at pastor cosmos' house, Stanley's church, Joseph's church, Thomas' church, I'm sure I'm missing some. We visited the high school, an elementary school, 2 hospitals and a clinic.
oh man, at one hospital there was a 19 year old named Japeth. Japeth was in hideous shape. We laid hands on him in prayer. he looked like a late stage AIDS patient but he wasn't. He had seizures and epilepsy and other things like maybe TB or something. He was all drawn up and skinny. He barely seemed coherent and was clearly in great pain.
His father used to care for him, but his father died a year ago. since then he'd been basically left to himself. The doctor, a very good man who runs the hospital in a rural area plus a clinic in kakamega and is a pastor, too---He made house calls in the area and found this boy uncared for. He demanded that the family bring him in for surgery. his bedsores were like giant holes the size of oranges eating into his hip. they brought him in a green old wheelbarrow that rested outside of his door. The pain that must have caused him! Japeth is often on my mind and I hate to consider how he suffers every minute. How he has suffered this last year! and he is just one of many who are unseen suffering in a world without treatment! But this doctor will care for him. He was going to take him into surgery that same day to remove the dead areas and put the boy on the path to healing.
there was so much fun there, though, too. i loved meeting Melab, wife of pastor Steve, mother to baby Anita, named after Anita when she came in December. Melab is a beautiful smart woman who sings and plays the drum for worship. She has a beautiful happy fat baby, which is so good to see when many babies are NOT fat. it is rare.
Steve asked Pastor Steve to stand next to his wife and get close to her. bishop titus is encouraging local pastors to love their wives as christ loves the church and to be affectionate with her. So pastor Steve sort of lays hands on his wife. My steve says, Hey, you look like you are PRAYING for her, get closer, so Pastor steve just takes a step closer but leaves his hands there on her neck. THIS CRACKS ME UP EVERY TIME I SEE IT!!! IT IS SO LOVELY AND DORKY!! He was trying.
They are a great couple, great people. one of my favorites. I look forward to getting to know them more and more.
okay, nap time. a little quick snooze so I can serve my hubby when he comes home from his first day at the office. he was sick from a cold he caught in kenya and suffered on the plane trip home. we got home at 1am on saturday morning and then went to garson's baylor graduation in waco first thing on saturday morning and did not get home until 7:30pm!!! so we crashed and then Steve slept most of sunday and the night too, and now he's had to go into work.
i've worked these past days, too, getting everything back in order, house restocked, bills paid, laundry washed, ....and so I'll get a little snooze to perk back up again.
God is good, all the time, in all ways, Amen!
i need to make a report. i hesitate to even do it. once I've told people about it, it will just fade in their memory like an old story. Old news. yesterdays news. but it is happening NOW. The work of God is going on NOW and it continues!
I can't remember right now how much we had in donations. We have at least four people whose donations will come through their company's matching funds. We're willing to wait for it!
We purchased 100 children's chairs for the school. Your dollars at work! We purchased six tables and either two or three cabinets for books. We officially agreed on the salaries for the two current teachers. They are advertising for new teachers with certification in early childhood education. We may keep these two teachers on as aides and we have a cook hired, too.
We spoke with the architect about building plans for the computer lab and library. Eventually we'd like to have it be two stories with a carpentry school and a tailoring school on the bottom and the computer lab and library on the top. For now, we'll build a one story building with a foundation capable of expansion to two stories. The land was purchased with money we sent in January before we had Trinity up and running.
We hired three people for the computer lab. One main guy is already a computer teacher who knows programming languages. he's also going to be our administrator. We left a computer with him. Another guy got a computer and he's going to be training so that he can also teach others. then we have a librarian ready to begin once the library is there. We may be able to get the building up, but it may be some time before it is filled with books! books are hard to ship, very expensive.
We also spoke with a local clinic and found out their needs. We went to a hospital and spoke with a doctor there. We purchased VERY low cost government dispersed mosquito nets at 65 cents a piece rather than the five dollars they would cost at the grocery store. He let us purchase quinine from him to send to the local clinic. Mom got one big bottle of 1000 and we bought one bottle of 1000. each bottle has 2000 doses for children.
malaria is a terrible killer. pregnant and nursing mothers and infants are particularly susceptible. AIDS kills slowly, malaria is frequent and quick. The doctor said that prevention is the key and the nets have significantly reduced the number of cases they treat daily.
We brought the donated aspirin and tylenol, and feminine products to the clinic. Mom brought a stethescope and a blood pressure cuff, a merck manual, exam gloves and alcohol wipes. They were so thankful and grateful. Talk about a pleasure to give! wow! it just makes you want to go find more to give.
and the need is so great, it is only a drop in the bucket.
but if everyone gives a drop, the bucket could runneth over!
and so I pray that we will continue to get the message out and that God will encourage others to join us in sharing with the poorest of poor.
Anita and I really enjoyed going around to the churches. The people are so welcoming. they are so blessed to have the novelty of visitors come into their lives. they are so friendly and cheerful even in their poverty. They know they are suffering, but they really look to the Lord for provision and relief and healing and encouragement. It is such a blessing to be around them.
The camera helps make easy friends. they love their picture taken. i wish I could hand them a finished photo! i will send photos for some, but it would cost a fortune to make them all and the money is better spent elsewhere.
Little Paul had been in the hospital when my mother made the visit there. Titus and Rose prayed for Paul. A few days later, we headed up the road to Margaret's house to pray for little Paul. He was out of the hospital but he was still hot with fever. We purchased that Quinine and were glad to send him some medication.
Another boy named Paul attends the school. He is 7 or 8 but he's not been to school and cannot afford to go. both of his parents died in a car accident and his pre-teen brother was left to raise the family. There is no way they will be able to pay for the uniforms or the books or the daily meal that are required in order to attend free public school. But Paul is learning English and Swahili at our preschool and he gets a free meal each day. Let's hope he's a whiz at computers because we do not have an elementary school yet and it would be a shame for him to only have a preschool education.
On a lighter note, there was the free termite meal night. I was not there, but mom and anita were awakened by people crawling around their house and it spooked them. they finally got up to find out what was going on. people had come to the place where there was electric lighting. After the rains, the termites had come in swarms. to the kenyans, this was manna from heaven! they were out collecting them and sticking them in cups and jars to take home and cook. for the hungry, they can be eaten alive as a sweet snack. Our friends gladly demonstated. UGH! even little children pick them up and snack on them cheerfully.
and then there was the day that Anita received the amazing luxury gift of a rooster. She was blessed. She knew what a sacrifice this was for Godwin and Mildred. Mildred was pregnant when we were there in December and we gave her baby supplies because she had nothing. Godwin had been a muslim who came to Jesus and his family rejected him and cut him off. He had nothing.
But the baby died in her womb and she delivered a stillborn. We were so grieved. Anita and I were talking on the phone when she got the email. We cried and prayed for young little Mildred.
so it was with great joy that we saw she was doing well. Anita accepted the gift graciously. She and mom headed to bed early that night. About 10pm, someone peeked into the room......was she ready to get up to eat dinner? ......no thank you, she was already asleep.
when she got up in the morning, she saw the boys eating the night's leftovers. it was rooster. and not any rooster, but her gift rooster! Gone, eaten. and they enjoyed him. Oh well, you can't exactly take him home, right? mom wishes she'd have gotten a picture of that bone on the plate. evidence that mr. rooster did indeed exist. but he passed into obscurity instead.
then there was my food poisoning. should I make a story out of that? ha ha! it was very public. everyone told me wherever i went afterwards that they were praying for my sickness. hooray! but I am glad they prayed. all through my misery, i continally thanked God telling Him, It is worth it. I am glad to be here. this is nothing. it will pass.
and it did.
and I'm fine.
i lost 10 pounds and then gained it right back, darn it.
slim for three days.
oh i guess there are more important things.
we did get to go around to several churches and preach the good news and rejoice with our brothers and sisters. We got to worship with them, which is always fun. especially at Joseph's church ---and I heard that Thomas Boya's church is very lively---but I was not able to make that one. We went to Sony's church, Boniface's church, Geoffrey's church at pastor cosmos' house, Stanley's church, Joseph's church, Thomas' church, I'm sure I'm missing some. We visited the high school, an elementary school, 2 hospitals and a clinic.
oh man, at one hospital there was a 19 year old named Japeth. Japeth was in hideous shape. We laid hands on him in prayer. he looked like a late stage AIDS patient but he wasn't. He had seizures and epilepsy and other things like maybe TB or something. He was all drawn up and skinny. He barely seemed coherent and was clearly in great pain.
His father used to care for him, but his father died a year ago. since then he'd been basically left to himself. The doctor, a very good man who runs the hospital in a rural area plus a clinic in kakamega and is a pastor, too---He made house calls in the area and found this boy uncared for. He demanded that the family bring him in for surgery. his bedsores were like giant holes the size of oranges eating into his hip. they brought him in a green old wheelbarrow that rested outside of his door. The pain that must have caused him! Japeth is often on my mind and I hate to consider how he suffers every minute. How he has suffered this last year! and he is just one of many who are unseen suffering in a world without treatment! But this doctor will care for him. He was going to take him into surgery that same day to remove the dead areas and put the boy on the path to healing.
there was so much fun there, though, too. i loved meeting Melab, wife of pastor Steve, mother to baby Anita, named after Anita when she came in December. Melab is a beautiful smart woman who sings and plays the drum for worship. She has a beautiful happy fat baby, which is so good to see when many babies are NOT fat. it is rare.
Steve asked Pastor Steve to stand next to his wife and get close to her. bishop titus is encouraging local pastors to love their wives as christ loves the church and to be affectionate with her. So pastor Steve sort of lays hands on his wife. My steve says, Hey, you look like you are PRAYING for her, get closer, so Pastor steve just takes a step closer but leaves his hands there on her neck. THIS CRACKS ME UP EVERY TIME I SEE IT!!! IT IS SO LOVELY AND DORKY!! He was trying.
They are a great couple, great people. one of my favorites. I look forward to getting to know them more and more.
okay, nap time. a little quick snooze so I can serve my hubby when he comes home from his first day at the office. he was sick from a cold he caught in kenya and suffered on the plane trip home. we got home at 1am on saturday morning and then went to garson's baylor graduation in waco first thing on saturday morning and did not get home until 7:30pm!!! so we crashed and then Steve slept most of sunday and the night too, and now he's had to go into work.
i've worked these past days, too, getting everything back in order, house restocked, bills paid, laundry washed, ....and so I'll get a little snooze to perk back up again.
God is good, all the time, in all ways, Amen!
Monday, April 13, 2009
Trinity Global Development YEAH!
I am so thankful that I have gotten the website posted to the web and I've gotten the paperwork for tax exemption sent to the IRS-the 1023. So I'll be a 501 (c)3 as soon as they notify me and then it will be retroactive to the date I mailed the paperwork--April 6, 2008.
and I'm gearing up for the trip to Kenya, but I've waited so long to ask anyone for donations. My friend Anita is bringing tons of stuff. She's got a huge midwifery poster set and a giant felt storyboard set, among other things. We're bringing childbirth and baby care books. My mom is going to teach hygiene and CPR. She'll take blood pressure readings and I'm not sure what else.
I'm going to be filming footage to use in a promo video so people get a feel for what it is like there.
I pray that Jesus is exalted and that people in Kenya give Him praise as a result of the generosity of those who give to see their lives improve.
and I'm gearing up for the trip to Kenya, but I've waited so long to ask anyone for donations. My friend Anita is bringing tons of stuff. She's got a huge midwifery poster set and a giant felt storyboard set, among other things. We're bringing childbirth and baby care books. My mom is going to teach hygiene and CPR. She'll take blood pressure readings and I'm not sure what else.
I'm going to be filming footage to use in a promo video so people get a feel for what it is like there.
I pray that Jesus is exalted and that people in Kenya give Him praise as a result of the generosity of those who give to see their lives improve.
Sunday, April 05, 2009
My Kenyan Friends
My heart is heavy. Little TJ, Titus Junior, died yesterday. The cause is a mystery right now, but I'm sure they will investigate. He was sleeping and his brother woke him, which startled him--and he could not catch his breath. He died. He is only 6 months old.
His mother was at a wedding and did not hear about it for hours. His father was with the oldest child, Sheila, at her school. They took him to the doctor but it was too late.
I cannot imagine.
His mother was at a wedding and did not hear about it for hours. His father was with the oldest child, Sheila, at her school. They took him to the doctor but it was too late.
I cannot imagine.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
when we're in heaven
I was considering heaven. We will be past Rev 20:12 when all of created humanity will be judged before the great white throne of God. the books of our deeds will be opened and reviewed but THE BOOK that matters is the Book of Life. If a person's name is in the Book of Life, they will not be thrown into the lake of fire, the second death (eternal separation from God.)
when the books are reviewed, it is going to stink. Everyone will have to sit through their own public showing of their entire private life. OUCH! The merciful point is that this happens to EVERYONE so after many reviews, there will not be many surprises (i'm guessing at that, of course)
I am imagining AFTER that, when those who are gathered to the Lord forever exist together in oneness with God and each other. I can't imagine that we would not rank ourselves somehow. yet, i feel certain that we will not. we will be fully known. we will be fully loved. we will accept each other because there is no sin.
but if I regret not doing MORE now, or if I see that I was able, by God's grace alone, to do more than another---how will this escape my notice later? Mostly I don't want to be there before God and see all that selfishness and wasted life when He was giving me so many gifts that I spent on myself, my comfort, my pleasure, my entertainment and fun. (I love fun.)
and i went down this road of thought because I am feeling so low and inadaquate after trying to teach while scatterbrained. since I am frequently scatterbrained on my good and gifted days, it makes me all the more discouraged to be scatterbrained AND disturbed. I am grieving for Cindy and her family.
it is not so much my thoughts that bother me, it seems to be my emotions. I may be processing and overtaxing my circuitry. I like to claim I have as many as 9 tracks going on in my head at once. I'm frequently accused of thinking too much. My husband tells me, "Don't think about it, JUST DO IT!" and I am left wondering what that means. How does any person avoid thinking? what does it take to shut off the brain?
the only way I usually shut down is when I am very tired, very sick, or very angry. None of constitute a good state of mind. any other time I am likely thinking of several things at once. and I'm not orderly about it. this can get unnerving when trying to explain something to someone else---and their going to need it in order.
teaching the children today did not go well. I so enjoy them. I wish I could just have fun with them and do whatever I want to do! I wish we could spend more time on the Bible and less time doing homework. and i personally don't care for the playground time--but they really like it, so it must have some value. :-)
enough rambling.
time to go to bed.
I wish I could talk to Cindy. Because she is constantly on my mind, I think of things I want to tell her, but then I remember that I can't do that.
oh how terrible it will be for Steve or me when our other dies. it is natural and normal. and I suppose it would be a tragedy indeed if we were to die at once because it would be such a burden to the children.
is anyone reading? I bless you. I pray God reveal Himself to you. I thank my mom for bringing up something that caused me to revisit this blog. (hence the photo of my mom)
this is a good time.
blog crazy.
but sane in the world.
yeah,
works for me.
thank you Jesus
when the books are reviewed, it is going to stink. Everyone will have to sit through their own public showing of their entire private life. OUCH! The merciful point is that this happens to EVERYONE so after many reviews, there will not be many surprises (i'm guessing at that, of course)
I am imagining AFTER that, when those who are gathered to the Lord forever exist together in oneness with God and each other. I can't imagine that we would not rank ourselves somehow. yet, i feel certain that we will not. we will be fully known. we will be fully loved. we will accept each other because there is no sin.
but if I regret not doing MORE now, or if I see that I was able, by God's grace alone, to do more than another---how will this escape my notice later? Mostly I don't want to be there before God and see all that selfishness and wasted life when He was giving me so many gifts that I spent on myself, my comfort, my pleasure, my entertainment and fun. (I love fun.)
and i went down this road of thought because I am feeling so low and inadaquate after trying to teach while scatterbrained. since I am frequently scatterbrained on my good and gifted days, it makes me all the more discouraged to be scatterbrained AND disturbed. I am grieving for Cindy and her family.
it is not so much my thoughts that bother me, it seems to be my emotions. I may be processing and overtaxing my circuitry. I like to claim I have as many as 9 tracks going on in my head at once. I'm frequently accused of thinking too much. My husband tells me, "Don't think about it, JUST DO IT!" and I am left wondering what that means. How does any person avoid thinking? what does it take to shut off the brain?
the only way I usually shut down is when I am very tired, very sick, or very angry. None of constitute a good state of mind. any other time I am likely thinking of several things at once. and I'm not orderly about it. this can get unnerving when trying to explain something to someone else---and their going to need it in order.
teaching the children today did not go well. I so enjoy them. I wish I could just have fun with them and do whatever I want to do! I wish we could spend more time on the Bible and less time doing homework. and i personally don't care for the playground time--but they really like it, so it must have some value. :-)
enough rambling.
time to go to bed.
I wish I could talk to Cindy. Because she is constantly on my mind, I think of things I want to tell her, but then I remember that I can't do that.
oh how terrible it will be for Steve or me when our other dies. it is natural and normal. and I suppose it would be a tragedy indeed if we were to die at once because it would be such a burden to the children.
is anyone reading? I bless you. I pray God reveal Himself to you. I thank my mom for bringing up something that caused me to revisit this blog. (hence the photo of my mom)
this is a good time.
blog crazy.
but sane in the world.
yeah,
works for me.
thank you Jesus
Sunday, March 22, 2009
My friend Cindy passed away on the 14th. I'm posting on a Sunday and last week I was sitting in the Madison, WI airport waiting for her youngest son to arrive so i could rent a car and drive us up to marshfield.
Her oldest son is in the other picture, along with my son Kevin in the middle with his former girlfriend. Kevin was in Chicago to help me move back home. we made sure to get together with Doug. It is always good to see him.
I'm sad. I'm not sad about death. Death doesn't bother me. I even look forward to my own death--and Cindy looked forward to hers. but she wasn't planning on going any time soon. it was abrupt and accidental and cruel.
and I know she relied on the sacrifice of Jesus and He said everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved, and she trusted in Him for her atonement, not in her own works.
but the suddenness and the cruel parts are just hard to swallow. the injustice of it. I am thankful that Jesus will overcome evil with good! He will overcome evil FOR GOOD!
and the song played at the funeral was one of our favorites. we went to the newsboys concert that year. we had the CD (or rather, the cassette, but i bought the CD later). they chose, "Shine"
and I also choose, "Elle G."
the first part doesn't make any sense, and no, Cindy did not kill herself as the girl in the song, but there are questions, there are regrets. How I wish I could talk to her!
thumbs out on a desert road, I am told, leads to nowhere. any shade is as good as the next, if your shadow doesn't go there.
week seven: Did you really assumeI'd find some solace from the letter in your room?next life, could you kindly refrain from throwing yourself at the mercy of a train?
silence all, nobody breathe how in the world could you just leave?you promised you would silence that evil with good
hear me out, I have the floor I'll give you my tears, I'll listen more you promised you would overcome evil with good
maybe this world is a barren place for a soul prone to get lost, but heaven still hounds from the smallest sounds to the cries of the storm-tossed.
week nine: I am writing in the sand any little clue that could help me understand
every whispered secret, every muffled sigh every half-truth that was added to a lie
silence all, nobody move I've got to know now what you hoped to prove you promised you would silence that evil with good
shame feeds guilt, guilt needs release you took it to God you made your peace and swore that you would overcome evil with good
every old demon playing back the crime if they needed blood, I'd have gladly given mine
a Child of the Kingdom; still an invalid
forgive her, please Fathershe don't know what she did
silence all, now go to sleep
the water's free, the well is deep
how can we return
that which we never could earn?
God, I long to see her face
we haven't a hopebeyond Your grace
I know that You will
overcome evil
for good
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Africa
I don't think I've posted for Africa. I don't send this out. Dad, are you out there? let me know if you get notification that I've blogged! :-)
I've been working on getting AID to Kenya and working on community development. I want to help them help themselves through education. The church there is opening a pre-school for orphans. I think tomorrow is the first day of school there. I want to get desks, curriculum, school supplies, and teacher support over there. We also want to build a computer lab and a library.
but that isn't all they need!
I'd like to be sure there is medical assistance, such as malaria treatment, AIDS antiretroviral medications, antibiotics, immunizations. I suppose I don't have to try to get these things there, but I want to do it.
We considered starting a non-profit. it is likely too complicated for our desires and means we will not be in the drivers seat. But a personal foundation needs at least 100,000.....and really more like 1 million. we don't have that.
Trying to find a 501c3 that can we can give through is another tough road. In order to do it ethically, we would need to find someone who already had OUR goals as their stated goals to the IRS. There is the church in Illinois, but they only fund per project. Of course, there IS the chance I could get them onboard for the computer lab, but currently they are working on a community tractor.
i checked with the CDC and I looked up some government grants. For the grants, I need to be a 501c3 or a research institution or higher education or something I'm not. For the CDC, I already need to be a medical person or someone with more education and experience than I have. oh bother.
However, the CDC is working on a program in Kenya, that it wants to bring to Kakamega, related to computer training for medical workers. They want to train them about infectious disease control and use e-learning. I could participate in that. They would not actually benefit my purposes, but I could be a benefit to them. I'm going to look into that further.
I've contacted CHF International to see if they will partner with me. They have some initiatives in Kenya, mainly centered around HIV, but I could possibly help in that arena as well. There are so many people with HIV and many have died from AIDS. There are so many orphans.
I know the government in Kenya is working on water sources and on increases agricultural technology and has money to award for those purposes. I want to learn more about those programs to make sure our friends are applying. We can work on biodigesters of manure and human waste that turn waste into gas for cooking. There is water reclamation or wind or solor power technologies. The biodigesters also have a by-product of a natural non-toxic nitrogen fertilizer. There's plenty of poop to go around, so i think we need to bring these plans to our friends!
I've been asked to come speak in April. I'm so happy about it. Rev. Kutima asked me to come speak at his church's youth conference. I am trying to finalize plans with Steve. I'd like to bring other people with me. I need to get a notice out about that.
it was interesting to read the NY Times and see an article by Bono. He's going to be a regular contributor now. I also want to work on his global initiatives. End poverty! there are millenium development goals of the UN about reducing extreme poverty by 2015. I'm all for it and want to participate.
It always seems you cannot do something unless you already do it. I never quite get that concept. but I am glad that somehow the world goes around with plenty of people who are already doing the things I want to do and so they continue to get to do them. I'd love to be a nurse, but I neither want to work at the education nor work at the job (12 hour shifts, UGH!)
I suppose I never like being tied down and unable to travel. That has its limitations.
but I am so thankful that I have gone to Africa and it is something Mr. can get excited about. He agreed to be open to China, but never quite got it. He's good with Africa and will be going with me in April. I am so excited!
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
added a blog
I added a blog today, MercySearch, as recommended by Jolene. MercySearch added her on facebook because of their common interests--now I want to contact MercySearch because she does work in Africa.
i haven't posted work in Africa---well, I haven't posted really anything!
God is good, though, and faithful and merciful and wonderful. I pray I bring Him glory!
I'm looking for curriculum to share with the new school there. I'm talking to CHF International about a partnership with them for Kakamega and rural area, Western District, Kenya.
i haven't posted work in Africa---well, I haven't posted really anything!
God is good, though, and faithful and merciful and wonderful. I pray I bring Him glory!
I'm looking for curriculum to share with the new school there. I'm talking to CHF International about a partnership with them for Kakamega and rural area, Western District, Kenya.
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