okay, I just don't want to write the paper! It is 4pm and I only work well until about 10pm. papers can take me as much as five hours! that means i only have one hour to kick in with the attentional focus. arrg.

i already took my nap.

aren't these little paws sticking out from under the sheet cute? don't you just wonder who is under there?

today in econ, we had this article.....

Reading the Coca Leaves By JOHN TIERNEYThe most enlightening speech at the United Nations this week, I’m sorry to say, was the one by Evo Morales of Bolivia.I don’t mean it was a good or even a coherent speech. That would be too much to expect from the world leaders’ annual gasathon. The rhetorical bar is extremely low. Morales, like his friend Hugo Chávez, spent much of his time ranting about a new world order based on the economic policies that have worked such wonders in Cuba. But Morales at least brought a visual aid ­ and thank God, it wasn’t a book by Noam Chomsky. Unlike Chávez, he didn’t assign reading homework to the U.N. Instead, he held up a small green coca leaf, and when he talked about international drug policies, he made more sense than anyone in the United States government. We’ve sacrificed soldiers’ lives and spent billions of dollars trying to stop peasants from growing coca in the Andes and opium in Afghanistan and other countries. But the crops have kept flourishing, and in America the street price of cocaine and heroin has plummeted in the past two decades. Meanwhile, we’ve been helping terrorists and other enemies abroad. The Senate has voted to send Afghanistan more money for programs to harass opium growers, whose discontent is already being exploited by the resurgent Taliban. In the Andes, American drug policies made Bolivians so mad that they elected Morales, a former leader of the coca growers, who campaigned for president on the kind of anti-American rhetoric he spouted this week.At the U.N., he denounced “the colonization of the Andean peoples” by imperialists intent on criminalizing coca. “It has been demonstrated that the coca leaf does no harm to human health," he said, a statement that’s much closer to the truth than Washington’s take on these leaves. The white powder sold on the streets of America is dangerous because it’s such a concentrated form of cocaine, but just about any substance can be perilous at a high enough dose. South Americans routinely drink coca tea and chew coca leaves. The tiny amount of cocaine in the leaves is a mild stimulant and appetite suppressant that isn’t more frightening than coffee or colas ­ in fact, it might be less addictive than caffeine, and on balance it might even be good for you. When the World Health Organization asked scientists to investigate coca in the 1990’s, they said it didn’t seem to cause health problems and might yield health benefits.But American officials fought against the publication of the report and against the loosening of restrictions on coca products, just as they’ve resisted proposals to let Afghan farmers sell opium to pharmaceutical companies instead of to narco-traffickers allied with the Taliban. The American policy is to keep attacking the crops, even if that impoverishes peasants ­ or, more typically, turns them into criminals.Drug prohibition in Bolivia and Afghanistan has done exactly what alcohol prohibition did in America: it has financed organized crime. The only workable solution is to repeal prohibition. Give Afghan poppy growers a chance to sell opium for legal painkilling medicines; give Andean peasants a legal international market for their crops in products like gum, lozenges, tea and other drinks. As Ethan Nadelmann of the Drug Policy Alliance proposes, “Put the coca back in Coca-Cola.”That’s what Morales wants, too, and he’s right to complain about American imperialists criminalizing a substance that has been used for centuries in the Andes. If gringos are abusing a product made from coca leaves, that’s a problem for America to deal with at home. The most cost-effective way is through drug treatment programs, not through futile efforts to cut off the supply.America makes plenty of things that are bad for foreigners’ health ­ fatty Big Macs, sugary Cokes, deadly Marlboros ­ but we’d never let foreigners tell us what to make and not make. The Saudis can fight alcoholism by forbidding the sale of Jack Daniels, but we’d think they were crazy if they ordered us to eradicate fields of barley in Tennessee.They’d be even crazier if they tried to wipe out every field of barley in the world, but that’s what our drug policy has come to. We think we can solve our cocaine problem by getting rid of coca leaves, but all we’re doing is empowering demagogues like Evo Morales. Our drug warriors put him in power. Now he gets to perform show and tell for the world.

and when I read it, I thought,...well, we sure wouldn't let anyone tell us not to grow barley. Darned imperialistic of us. But do I want to increase supply of coca to the U.S......no. I am hardly one who is for legalization, although I see some good points to taxation and such. Still, although they discussed coke and meth in class, I was thinking of crack! Since crack became the cheap way to get high, it has destroyed people because of easy access. So I suppose I would want the price of drugs to stay high.

but when I was at my apartment, before class, all I could think of was.....shoot. I never think about drug trade except in school. We are always talking about drugs in school. But my children haven't had any probs with drugs and while they are around it, none of their friends have been arrested or gotten sick or whatever. So the drug thing is kind of far from home for me. So I just sort of listened on this discussion. It was funny not to have 25 things to say. My last classes in school were in my psych major, so I ALWAYS had TONS to say (one of those big mouths in class), so I don't have any trouble being quiet because it won't be for long. When we get into teen parenting and such.....then I'll have plenty to say (maybe?)

but for now, I need to write that paper. So I'll go try again. If you read this ........say a prayer for me! It's "paper prayer" time again. I feel like such a Jesus-User. Just selfishly praying for myself and for help all the time when I'm in school......but I am glad that Jesus daily bears my burdens and He gives me rest and leads me beside still waters and restores my soul! His yoke is easy! and I am glad to be working for the King! Praise the Lord!